Wednesday, September 26, 2007

My Magic

It was an awesome night at TCC preview last night. i was down with sore throat and cough. i thought my energy and space would be affected, how am i to share powerfully. Woohoo..and i pull it off, powerfully and it managed to hit a few people.

It has been a long time since i last shared before i flew off to beijing. Nice. Come to think of it, i'm amazed by what i gone through. Sis dionis and dave did a fantastic job in leading the preview. Fun! :D

And my dear xiao mei-weiling finally took the leap! Off she go for the October TCC. i'm excited for her in what she's gonna create for herself after the program in the dragonboat team. Grow grow grow...:D

Isn't it amazing to watch someone grow? Considering an alternate path, something which had them held on tightly and bring them to where they are today, and yet they chose to take the path peiying, esther and myself took. Indeed, that is courage. Taking a leap to what's on the other side. Another side which we have yet to discover all these while. Is all a matter of time.

At some point in our lives, we are going to face the questions like,
1) Who are you?
- What's behind that name of yours?
- What's behind that identity of yours?
- If all is stripped away, who are you really?

2) Why are you here?
- What is your purpose in this life?

3) What is the meaning of life?

etc etc...

Probably some have given up in searching for answers cos is not out there, is in here.
Within you.

Consider i might be able to lead you to your truth, are you willing to see?

Can one bear your own truth?

There is no THE truth, simply yours to begin with.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

The Rose

Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love it is a razor that leaves the soul to bleed.
Some say love it is a hunger an endless aching need.
I say love it is a flower and you it's only seed.

When the heart is afriad of breaking, that never learns to dance.
When the dream is afriad of waking, that never learns to take the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give.
And the soul afriad of dying, that never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long.
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winter far beneathe the bitter snow.
Lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose.

What is love?
What if there is an answer to it?

http://www.liveyourmark.org/pos/index.html

Cheers.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Yeah! I'm BACK!

Greetings to all!

Quick updates about me in my life:
1) In the midst of 9 months Basic Leadership Training
2) Course Supervisor for Making Courage Work
3) Life coaching
4) Studies & projects
5) Boyfriend
6) Family
7) Friends

More details of the organisation i'm in or should you be interested in life coaching:
http://www.liveyourmark.org/


Alrighty! i have been away...for such a long time. She was in depression, sadness, wimpy, seriousness, fear...i almost couldnt recognise her. Until i met eric and he reminded me that i used to have high energy and joy in me. That was Joan. Where was she? She never left.

Zeoane came and decided to take another perspective of how she should be like. She went on to test and try different methods to find what suits her. But fun is all she is. Energy is all she is. Why be someone who she is not? Why live up to other's expectations and beat self up when expectations are not met?

Who is Zeoane? Just that you never get to see her existence that's all.
They are just different parts of me, isn't it. Whatever name it says, is stil the same person. What for I put a distinction. Interesting how i showed up lately. Thank you for your tolerance in bearing with my wimpyness!

I want my sunshine back. I want my high energy back..the truth is, it never left. Just that i haven seen her for a long time. And i kept looking out to be like others. Gee...how tiring. Be true to yourself.

New responsibilities are taken up. When all things seem to crash on you, you get to see your blindspots flashed in front of you and all alarming you that your existing systems don't freaking work. Get an upgrade!!! Change your system. How much resistance that takes? Until it cost you bad enough probably you might want a change for yourself.

Only when you play a different role in a different situation, then it'll call out the other sides of you which you never have a chance to see it for who you really are. Sometimes we are just afriad to take the leap, that we are afriad is cos there is another part of us about to be awaken. And we are unfamiliar with this new part of us.

Our Deepest Fear
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves,
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Shine cos we are meant to.

:)