WohOooo...
It has been an amazing growth of 8 weeks where i was involved in programs after programs. Breakdowns were inevitable. Sometimes we stayed there for awhile before we get out of it. And when we do, a breakthrough occured for us. It has been madness weeks and i'm glad i survived through. Thanks to simon, yixin, dionis, alex, esther, eileen and all who have kindly support me thru out this period of time.
It dawned upon me that my relationship with simon is coming to 6 months. and i haven been catching up with my friends. Next on list to do...gonna catch up with them.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Saturday, October 6, 2007
Grow grow growww...
It has been an amazing 6 weeks of MCW (making courage work), i also took on making courage work for me. Never would i imagine myself to take up the CS (course supervisor) role. Well i procrastinated for 3 years and deferred my area of growth where i lack in. It has been a complete showcase of my blindspots to remind me to work on them all the time.
Thinking back on how i started, there were hiccups along the way, bumping my way through. i fell..i stood up..i fell again..stood up again. Went through cycles of breakdown and breakthrough. More to come. It is just the beginning, isn't it? At the very least i'm falling FORWARD. :) I confronted things that i do not want to do and i want to acknowledge myself for taking this up. :) It may not be as fantastic but but but..it is somewhere that i start and that i can continue to improve upon. At the very least i have a framework of how things work or how things can work.
Wanna acknowledge yixin for standing by me as my coach in this cos i really would have given up right at the beginning. And it manage to bring out my weak side and depressed side..looks like i'm really very confronted by it.
What i done recently is that i went shopping!!! gotten myself a dress, handbag, and shoes! Now doing my hair as i blog! haha. Acts of self love. :) Is time to pamper pamper myself as i travel on this journey.
yeppy...what have you done for yourself recently?
Anyway my sis is back for good! We had lunch together ..finally the family is reunited! and we had fun chatting and laughing. :D happy! nice!
Thinking back on how i started, there were hiccups along the way, bumping my way through. i fell..i stood up..i fell again..stood up again. Went through cycles of breakdown and breakthrough. More to come. It is just the beginning, isn't it? At the very least i'm falling FORWARD. :) I confronted things that i do not want to do and i want to acknowledge myself for taking this up. :) It may not be as fantastic but but but..it is somewhere that i start and that i can continue to improve upon. At the very least i have a framework of how things work or how things can work.
Wanna acknowledge yixin for standing by me as my coach in this cos i really would have given up right at the beginning. And it manage to bring out my weak side and depressed side..looks like i'm really very confronted by it.
What i done recently is that i went shopping!!! gotten myself a dress, handbag, and shoes! Now doing my hair as i blog! haha. Acts of self love. :) Is time to pamper pamper myself as i travel on this journey.
yeppy...what have you done for yourself recently?
Anyway my sis is back for good! We had lunch together ..finally the family is reunited! and we had fun chatting and laughing. :D happy! nice!
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
My Magic
It was an awesome night at TCC preview last night. i was down with sore throat and cough. i thought my energy and space would be affected, how am i to share powerfully. Woohoo..and i pull it off, powerfully and it managed to hit a few people.
It has been a long time since i last shared before i flew off to beijing. Nice. Come to think of it, i'm amazed by what i gone through. Sis dionis and dave did a fantastic job in leading the preview. Fun! :D
And my dear xiao mei-weiling finally took the leap! Off she go for the October TCC. i'm excited for her in what she's gonna create for herself after the program in the dragonboat team. Grow grow grow...:D
Isn't it amazing to watch someone grow? Considering an alternate path, something which had them held on tightly and bring them to where they are today, and yet they chose to take the path peiying, esther and myself took. Indeed, that is courage. Taking a leap to what's on the other side. Another side which we have yet to discover all these while. Is all a matter of time.
At some point in our lives, we are going to face the questions like,
1) Who are you?
- What's behind that name of yours?
- What's behind that identity of yours?
- If all is stripped away, who are you really?
2) Why are you here?
- What is your purpose in this life?
3) What is the meaning of life?
etc etc...
Probably some have given up in searching for answers cos is not out there, is in here.
Within you.
Consider i might be able to lead you to your truth, are you willing to see?
Can one bear your own truth?
There is no THE truth, simply yours to begin with.
It has been a long time since i last shared before i flew off to beijing. Nice. Come to think of it, i'm amazed by what i gone through. Sis dionis and dave did a fantastic job in leading the preview. Fun! :D
And my dear xiao mei-weiling finally took the leap! Off she go for the October TCC. i'm excited for her in what she's gonna create for herself after the program in the dragonboat team. Grow grow grow...:D
Isn't it amazing to watch someone grow? Considering an alternate path, something which had them held on tightly and bring them to where they are today, and yet they chose to take the path peiying, esther and myself took. Indeed, that is courage. Taking a leap to what's on the other side. Another side which we have yet to discover all these while. Is all a matter of time.
At some point in our lives, we are going to face the questions like,
1) Who are you?
- What's behind that name of yours?
- What's behind that identity of yours?
- If all is stripped away, who are you really?
2) Why are you here?
- What is your purpose in this life?
3) What is the meaning of life?
etc etc...
Probably some have given up in searching for answers cos is not out there, is in here.
Within you.
Consider i might be able to lead you to your truth, are you willing to see?
Can one bear your own truth?
There is no THE truth, simply yours to begin with.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
The Rose
Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love it is a razor that leaves the soul to bleed.
Some say love it is a hunger an endless aching need.
I say love it is a flower and you it's only seed.
When the heart is afriad of breaking, that never learns to dance.
When the dream is afriad of waking, that never learns to take the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give.
And the soul afriad of dying, that never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long.
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winter far beneathe the bitter snow.
Lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose.
What is love?
What if there is an answer to it?
http://www.liveyourmark.org/pos/index.html
Cheers.
Some say love it is a razor that leaves the soul to bleed.
Some say love it is a hunger an endless aching need.
I say love it is a flower and you it's only seed.
When the heart is afriad of breaking, that never learns to dance.
When the dream is afriad of waking, that never learns to take the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give.
And the soul afriad of dying, that never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long.
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winter far beneathe the bitter snow.
Lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose.
What is love?
What if there is an answer to it?
http://www.liveyourmark.org/pos/index.html
Cheers.
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Yeah! I'm BACK!
Greetings to all!
Quick updates about me in my life:
1) In the midst of 9 months Basic Leadership Training
2) Course Supervisor for Making Courage Work
3) Life coaching
4) Studies & projects
5) Boyfriend
6) Family
7) Friends
More details of the organisation i'm in or should you be interested in life coaching:
http://www.liveyourmark.org/
Alrighty! i have been away...for such a long time. She was in depression, sadness, wimpy, seriousness, fear...i almost couldnt recognise her. Until i met eric and he reminded me that i used to have high energy and joy in me. That was Joan. Where was she? She never left.
Zeoane came and decided to take another perspective of how she should be like. She went on to test and try different methods to find what suits her. But fun is all she is. Energy is all she is. Why be someone who she is not? Why live up to other's expectations and beat self up when expectations are not met?
Who is Zeoane? Just that you never get to see her existence that's all.
They are just different parts of me, isn't it. Whatever name it says, is stil the same person. What for I put a distinction. Interesting how i showed up lately. Thank you for your tolerance in bearing with my wimpyness!
I want my sunshine back. I want my high energy back..the truth is, it never left. Just that i haven seen her for a long time. And i kept looking out to be like others. Gee...how tiring. Be true to yourself.
New responsibilities are taken up. When all things seem to crash on you, you get to see your blindspots flashed in front of you and all alarming you that your existing systems don't freaking work. Get an upgrade!!! Change your system. How much resistance that takes? Until it cost you bad enough probably you might want a change for yourself.
Only when you play a different role in a different situation, then it'll call out the other sides of you which you never have a chance to see it for who you really are. Sometimes we are just afriad to take the leap, that we are afriad is cos there is another part of us about to be awaken. And we are unfamiliar with this new part of us.
Our Deepest Fear
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves,
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Shine cos we are meant to.
:)
Quick updates about me in my life:
1) In the midst of 9 months Basic Leadership Training
2) Course Supervisor for Making Courage Work
3) Life coaching
4) Studies & projects
5) Boyfriend
6) Family
7) Friends
More details of the organisation i'm in or should you be interested in life coaching:
http://www.liveyourmark.org/
Alrighty! i have been away...for such a long time. She was in depression, sadness, wimpy, seriousness, fear...i almost couldnt recognise her. Until i met eric and he reminded me that i used to have high energy and joy in me. That was Joan. Where was she? She never left.
Zeoane came and decided to take another perspective of how she should be like. She went on to test and try different methods to find what suits her. But fun is all she is. Energy is all she is. Why be someone who she is not? Why live up to other's expectations and beat self up when expectations are not met?
Who is Zeoane? Just that you never get to see her existence that's all.
They are just different parts of me, isn't it. Whatever name it says, is stil the same person. What for I put a distinction. Interesting how i showed up lately. Thank you for your tolerance in bearing with my wimpyness!
I want my sunshine back. I want my high energy back..the truth is, it never left. Just that i haven seen her for a long time. And i kept looking out to be like others. Gee...how tiring. Be true to yourself.
New responsibilities are taken up. When all things seem to crash on you, you get to see your blindspots flashed in front of you and all alarming you that your existing systems don't freaking work. Get an upgrade!!! Change your system. How much resistance that takes? Until it cost you bad enough probably you might want a change for yourself.
Only when you play a different role in a different situation, then it'll call out the other sides of you which you never have a chance to see it for who you really are. Sometimes we are just afriad to take the leap, that we are afriad is cos there is another part of us about to be awaken. And we are unfamiliar with this new part of us.
Our Deepest Fear
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves,
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Shine cos we are meant to.
:)
Friday, July 27, 2007
Last day at Ogilvy!
A pretty office i must say...at Ogilvy Beijing! Our meeting room and corridor!:)
All things come in a full circle. When there's a beginning, there's an end. Really thankful for the friendships forged during this short stint in Beijing. Here are the pretty pics with these lovely folks!
My Boss, Rianne & me!
My local friends- jessica, sophia, amanda, katerina, me!
Jessica and I.
My farewell lunch at 咱家！
I'll be back from Beijing late next week. Gonna be busy busy and full of growth term. Clear backlog on my schedule. Change of name and training...woshhh!Heading for a farewell dinner with my consulting folks soon. :)
Take care.
See you!
Monday, July 16, 2007
Forbidden City + Xi'An
Hey all,
Pictures speak louder than words. Here I am with the pictures. This was taken at Xi'an, hua qing chi. yang gui fei's bathing area.
Emperor Xuan zong bathing area. More of a swimming pool, isn't it?
Pin Ma Yong...wahhh! Finally get to see them on real life.
Eating rou jia mo..yummy!
Chinese burgerrrr...
Forbidden City pics...Great exercise session!:p
Welcome to the palace!
Pictures speak louder than words. Here I am with the pictures. This was taken at Xi'an, hua qing chi. yang gui fei's bathing area.
Emperor Xuan zong bathing area. More of a swimming pool, isn't it?
Pin Ma Yong...wahhh! Finally get to see them on real life.
Eating rou jia mo..yummy!
Chinese burgerrrr...
Forbidden City pics...Great exercise session!:p
Welcome to the palace!
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Beijing Beijing..here I am!
Hey all,
Finally found time to blog my latest update about my life in Beijing. Been here for more than a month. I took mrt with the chinese folks every morning and evening, fighting for every inch of my space and protecting my space. Very challenging. hehe. Anyway, i got used to it and took little "pong pong" to work every morning. See below.
Finally found time to blog my latest update about my life in Beijing. Been here for more than a month. I took mrt with the chinese folks every morning and evening, fighting for every inch of my space and protecting my space. Very challenging. hehe. Anyway, i got used to it and took little "pong pong" to work every morning. See below.
Finally got a haircut. It has been super hot like 43 degrees. Crazy weather. Feel much lighter..heh!
SMU excursion to SHIDU aka Ten Ferries.
Beautiful landscape, isn't it?
And the SMU jump!!!
At the limstone cave...we were having geography lesson! WOW!
The posers!
Family came over for holidays! My mummy, aunty song, enqi and enen.
Mummy at cherry orchard. We plucked and plucked...nice nice!
My mummy and i had fun from taking the 1580m slide down from great wall of china. FUN!
My mummy can really climbed the great wall! We were leading in front of the pack. Her stamina was superb!
My sis and I at Houhai aka Boat Quay of Singapore.
Esther & I at Hutong! Beijing oldest street..
Posers again! heh!
Our Hutong outing with me and Esther!
That's all folks. Cheers!
Saturday, May 19, 2007
New Beginning
Welcome to my loving dovey world!
Simply too simple to be true that love exist in the world, isn't it? Well it defintely does, at least in my world. I guess is time to move to the next phase of my life, hence the creation of another website, along with my new name and etc. I'm currently at Beijing for internship with Ogilvy. Pretty exciting cos i'm gonna start work on Monday.
Been receiving love from my world which made me feel really blessed. A new addition into my life where i found my soul mate, companion and buddy while exploring a new part of my life. And we are growing together, flying powerfully together. :) Here he is, Mr Simon Tan. :D He's gaining quite a bit of popularity from my loved ones.
I'm living a great life and it shall continue to be as it is. May the sisters reunite and our BILs too! hehe!
Simply too simple to be true that love exist in the world, isn't it? Well it defintely does, at least in my world. I guess is time to move to the next phase of my life, hence the creation of another website, along with my new name and etc. I'm currently at Beijing for internship with Ogilvy. Pretty exciting cos i'm gonna start work on Monday.
Been receiving love from my world which made me feel really blessed. A new addition into my life where i found my soul mate, companion and buddy while exploring a new part of my life. And we are growing together, flying powerfully together. :) Here he is, Mr Simon Tan. :D He's gaining quite a bit of popularity from my loved ones.
I'm living a great life and it shall continue to be as it is. May the sisters reunite and our BILs too! hehe!
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